I don't want to think anymore...
It hurts to think. And it hurts even more to cry...
What is wrong.
What is right?
I will never understand... I don't want to understand...
Sometimes, I fear that the truth will break me...
Its something I don't think I will be able to handle on my own...
I wish I lived in a world where everybody is free to love whoever they choose...
Without rules that break 2 people apart...
Is it so much to ask? To spend an eternity with the person you love?
maybe. maybe Dominic is the answer to my prayer....
maybe God finally relented and our path crossed...
It torments me.......
The love is never problematic.... rather, the world hardly seem to stand against it now...
Father, what are You thinking now?...
Do you even love me?
Why do you set all these rules that go against being with the person I love more then my life itself?
I understand if You want my heart..
But just like how You created Eve for Adam,
Adam loved Eve.
Why can't I love Dominic?...
You say its wrong, wrong and more wrong.
Every rule you said is justified and has been justified
Except this rule that was just said, I don't understand!...
I just don't understand..
I think I've begged you to tell me over a million times...
You always respond to all my prayers...
Except this particular one...
And its just an answer... I need just an answer...
Why?
Are you jealous that another guy might come and take the place of you in my heart?
You know that its impossible, because I love you above everybody, everything and anybody else...
But the torment that its inflicting on me is killing my love for You..
Silently... I do not know if the enemy is causing this... But I bet he's enjoying every bit of this...
Father... I just want you to approve of me and Dominic..
Is it so difficult?
Won't you ever give me an answer?...
It hurts to think, and.. it hurts even more to cry.....
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